Still six months, three weeks, three days babytime
How many times have you been here before, Dana?
I think Ive lost count. To me this is just another waiting room, just another
hospital stay to add to the long list.
One of this days hes not going to come home.
Please dont let that be today.
I got down to the hospital as fast as an almost seven-month pregnant woman
could. I think I sped through at least two red lights.
Now Im sitting the surgical waiting room, a room thats not foreign to me. Its
just another four walls, just another nervous nail biting waiting period. Its just another
stack of insurance forms to fill out.
Or is it?
Things are different now. I move my hand down to my stomach and absently rub
it. Things are different.
My mother joined me about an hour ago. I dont know who called her, but Im
glad they did. Hes been in surgery for almost four hours now.
Thats a long time. But hes had longer.
I talked to the doctor. Hes a mess, basically. Hit his head on the dashboard; hes
lucky he missed the windshield. He doesnt has airbags in his car; something that I
constantly argue with him about. We usually take my car because of it. But today we left at different times, in different cars.
I should have made him take my car.
His other injuries include internal bleeding, broken ribs, and a nice little
pneumothorax caused by one of the ribs that basically decided to snap in half.
Im calm, Im surprisingly calm.
That is what is worrying me the most.
The police talked to me also. They had five eyewitnesses who saw a brown van
tailgate Mulder for almost five minutes, before it suddenly pushed itself forward, causing
Mulder to easily lose control.
The car had no license plates. And tinted windows. No one saw the driver.
Oh and the car was abandoned less then two miles from the hospital, wiped
completely clean of any fingerprints.
And Im calm.
Secretly, Im thinking about how many people I could knockoff with my gun. I
leave my hand on my stomach. One thing I dont want to do now is get myself so worked up that I send myself into labor.
Mulder would kill me if I had this baby without him.
I dont want to have this baby without him. I can just think of the crib at home
hes worked so hard to put together. He finished it two days ago and yesterday it
collapsed. I should have seen it coming.
Just like the table that collapsed in the _Joy Luck Club_. I remember high school
English class. Didnt my English teacher say that in every story when something fell or
collapsed that it foreshadowed a bad situation to come?
I never did like English. Science was definitely more my forte. That way
everything always had a definite answer, there was no "it could go either way" or "you
have to read between the lines to see the true meaning." At least not in my schooling.
The X-Files and Mulder couldnt have proved me more wrong.
I think in the fifth hour of surgery I fell asleep because the next thing I knew
someone was shaking my shoulder.
"Ms. Scully?" I sit up suddenly, cursing myself for falling asleep. I find a doctor
dressed in green scrubs standing in front of me, a chart in hands.
"Mr. Mulder is out of surgery."
Out of surgery? I glance at the clock on the wall and discover Ive only been
asleep for about half an hour. I stop cursing myself.
"How is he?" I manage to mumble, my voice not completely with it yet.
The doctor gripped the chart in his hands, something I recognized as a Ive got
bad news to tell you grip. A girl I went to medical school with used the tactic; I told her
that it tips off the family members immediately. She still did it.
"Ill be honest with you, Ms. Scully, hes in bad shape. We managed to patch him
up, but hes not out of the woods. The head injury is what were most concerned with, so the next 24-48 hours will be critical."
"Can I see him?" It was my first impulse, besides wanting to go out and personally
shoot the person responsible for this accident.
The doctor nodded. "Hes been taken up to ICU. Ill let them know youre
After that, I kinda just walked up there as if on autopilot. I knew the way; Ive
walked these walls a lot more than Id admit. Mulder tends to go between Washington
General and Northwestern Georgetown. It mostly depends on which one is closer at the
time of the incident.
The next hours are a blur. I sit mostly by his bedside, spending the maximum time
that Im allowed at his bedside. My mother forces me down the cafeteria, I call in sick for work. Only twenty-four hours go by, but it seems like a lifetime. Sit, get up, eat. I do eat, but not for myself, but for the baby. I figure I might as well have some common
Mulders a fighter and doesnt surprise me. After twenty-five hours hes awake.
And then goes right back to sleep after groggily acknowledging me. Its three hours later when he awakes again wanting to know how long hes going to be laid up here that I know hes going to be okay.
And I cant be happier. Yet, it still bothers me.
If they wanted him dead, then why didnt they do the job completely then?
Seven months, four days -- babytime
"Ive been here for eight days, Scully. I want to go home."
Hes whining like a two year old. And I love it. Hes really making a great
recovery. Just this morning, I found him with a baby catalog in his lap and a credit card in his hand. How he got a hold of the catalog, I dont know, but I decided that he has to get out of here soon before my (correction, now our) apartment is mistake for Toys R Us.
Now hes looking at me again, with that look hes been perfecting for the last six
years. All I can do is smile and go to find his doctor to talk about release papers. Hes
beaming and talking about a nice comforter he found for the crib he built.
I still havent had the heart to tell him the crib he spent so much time putting up
collapsed. Yet, somehow, I know he wont mind putting it back up.
Either that or he gives in and pays the extra fifteen dollars for construction.
Seven months, 19 days
Hes been home for a week and a half and things are going back to normal, well,
what you can call normal for Mulder. He was disappointed to see the crib back in pieces, but putting it back to together is the least strenuous activity I find him happy with. He seems to have forgotten how he still has another week and a half of medical leave before he can even step foot in the FBI.
Maybe next I should buy a self-assembling high chair.
"Shit! Damn piece of-"
Then again, maybe not.
My mind has almost forgotten about the accident, but almost isnt enough in my
book. The police found no leads; the case was going nowhere. Mulder was alive and
almost as good as new, so I tried to concentrate on that. But I still cant get rid of the
feeling I have in the pit of my stomach.
Neither can the baby. He or she kicks like crazy whenever I seem to think about
it. I dont know what to make of that. Things have been too easy. I somehow doubt that "they" would just leave us alone. As my due date grows closer, I just get more worried. September 14th is circled on my calendar, but all I feel is dread about that day.
I curse myself for that feeling. A baby brings joy, but then you throw in the last six
years of my life and . . . well, you dont exactly get the best feeling in the world. Maybe
Im just paranoid.
Mulder taught me well.
I turn and find him holding his hand, a look of pain on his face. I sigh and take his
palm, and look at the nice three inch gash that it now has.
"I think we should have someone come and assemble the crib," he says weakly and
all I can do is laugh.
"Ok, but first back to the ER. Youre going to need stitches," I answer, picking
up the car keys. He grimaces.
Yes, things are definitely getting back to normal in the Mulder world, at least.
August 14th has arrived. The one month countdown has continued. My mother
told me she started packing for the hospital at eight months, just in case. That was a good thing, too, because I was two and a half weeks early. I decided I wasnt going to be unpacked when this baby let me know it wanted out. Thus, at eight months, my bag was packed and by the door. Mulder just shook his head. I just smiled.
"Babies are like the government, Mulder. They arrive when they want, on their
"Own schedule? Yeah, I guess even screwing the people has a schedule these
days." From my position on the couch, I throw a pillow at him. He just ducks and goes
back to the paperwork he has laid in front of him.
Mulders gone back to work, though he has another week before hes totally
cleared to go into the field again. Hes just been catching up on paperwork, a hell of a lot of paperwork. Yes, were still on background checks. And yes, Mulders less than
enthusiastic, just as before.
My maternity leave starts in about two weeks, though I can tell Mulder wishes I
would talk off earlier. Hes lucky Im taking off two weeks _before_ the baby. If I really
listened to what I wanted, Id be working until I went into labor. But I know I need some
time off, and I have swollen ankles to prove it.
Ive been getting a lot of "You still here?" and "When is that baby due?" at work,
so I really do need to get out of there. They are driving me nuts. Especially all the
women who I never talk to who come up to me and give me advice that I dont want and I
dont need. Why does everybody think that just because Im pregnant I need every piece of child rearing advice I can get? Plus, no one ever agrees. Ive gotten more
contradictions than agreements. Its very confusing.
Mulder and I still cant agree on a name. Hes still insistent about the name
Elizabeth, and refuses to name a baby girl anything other than that. Maybe it wouldnt be such a bad thing if we had a boy.
I still want that girl, though.
The crib is up, thanks to my neighbor Nick upstairs who had just finishing
assembling his nieces the week before. Mulder grumbled throughout the whole process, but it was basically because he was pissed he couldnt do it himself. He got over it quick, as soon as he discovered that Nick was a Knicks fan. And thankfully a married Knicks fan. I try to remind him that Im eight months pregnant, why would I go shopping now, but he doesnt listen. Thats jealousy for you. And for some reason thats kind of nice.
Life has become what I thought Id hate. Somewhat normal hours, and a family. I
had always wanted a family, but somehow I had pictured it differently. However, some
things are meant to be.
Meant to be. That statement itself gives me a shiver. I keep thinking its just a
charade. That theyre (why do I say that I always wonder) just waiting for Mulders and
my guard to go down. That out baby is going to be tested and
I have an overactive imagination.
Or maybe not. It seemed Im more paranoid then Mulder these days. Though, I
know when he thinks Im not looking, hes e-mailing the guys and putting them on the
lookout. Yeah, this is a real storybook romance, all right. Perhaps I should start writing
childrens books while Im at it.
During my last week at work, I got an interesting proposition offered to me by AD
Kersh. I could say good-bye to background checks and field work until my maternity
leave and for two months after it to go back to the autopsy game. At first, I considered it garbage and suspected something was behind it, but in the end, Mulder got me to take it. Said it would allow me more time with the baby for the first couple of months.
"You can always chase a fertilizer truck, Scully," he teased, and was in surprisingly
good spirits. For some reason I think its the fact that word got down that the X-Files
solving percentage is down. Way down. At this rate, though, Im afraid Mulder may
resort to stealing them from the filing cabinets in the basement. If only it were basketball season
8 months, 14 days
My hearts still pounding.
Today was not a good day.
It was my last day of work before my maternity leave started. My mother was
taking me baby item shopping the next day, excited as could be over the fact the two week countdown was about to begin. However, she was going to drag me past the weeding displays I knew, but I wouldnt mind so much.
After today, I dont think I feel like shopping.
It was simple really. Some coworkers had (to my surprise) decided to give me a
cake and a kind of baby shower. Turns out, since Mulder and I got involved, that I
seemed a little brighter to some people. I hadnt noticed a change. I still dont think
there is one. The thought was nice and I was all set to leave, a bag of baby gifts ready to take with me, when I noticed a small white envelope next to the bag.
I had picked it up, thinking Id neglected it before and it went with one of the gifts.
Curious, I had opened it, reading its contents. My demeanor changed immediately.
"No accident is a mistake. Its only a warning. Watch your step." The sentence
has ingrained itself in my memory. It could be prank, but the line, typed in its simplicity
seemed like no prank to me. Mulder was the same, taking the paper and starting his own private investigation. Im just off on my own, thinking of what it meant. I never saw
anyone drop the note off.
What made it even worse was the same message was in an e-mail sent to my
mailbox, the returning address not existing. It was a warning. What was going on here? I had two weeks until my due and now this? Something was going to happen.
Mulder immediately asked for two weeks off, and was on the phone at least an
hour tonight, before pulling me into the bedroom and telling me to pack.
"What is going on?" is my immediate reaction.
"Frohike got a hold of some security tapes from the Bureau. Someone likes us,
Scully. Just enough to tell us to get the hell out of here. At least until you have that
"What a minute, Mulder. Im just as worried as you are, but where are we going
"The guys found us a place. Upstate New York. And someone who might be able
to help us lose the trail." Hes throwing clothes into a duffel bag and starts to open my
drawers as well. For a moment he stops and meets my eye, before stepping toward me. "I love you, Scully. Ill explain everything on the way, I promise. Just trust me?"
I start going through my drawers.
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